i'm going out of my head. i just got back from the hospital. i was in the "wacky shack". I needed it, and it really helped me find myself. unfortunately i realized that the love of my life, and my best friend...needs to go. she caused me alot of pain. and she...idk, i feel used by her. shes my everything. and i just need to let go. i need to get my life figured out...and she isn't mature enough for a relationship. who knows...maybe in the future we can be together, but i can't rely on that. she is my heart and soul...but its just time for me to move on. i need to let go as well. she...idk...i don't think she loves me at all...and hasn't for awhile.