My life

so what happens when you move in your girlfriend? for me itwas unexplicable bliss...for her...idk. i love her so much. And yet, she left me.I called her a bitch, and i disrespected her. So she left. So no i'm left with an empty apartment not knowing whether or not i'm gonna make it without her. I don't even know if want to get back together with her. Thats the hard part. I don't know if i want her becausei love her or because its just habit to be with her. I've beenwith herforever, and i've loved her for ever. I don't know what i'm gonna do without her. I love her so much...but i don't know if she feels the same. She took everything out of the apartment, and i'm empty...along with the house that used to be home. My heart is shattered and i don't know what to do. It feels good that i still have writing to help me through this.